Sleepless nights.. endless thoughts..
So confused and messed up, I don't know what to think anymore..
Trying to lose those thoughts but they keep haunting me, like a drug.

and I'm the addict.

I wish time could pass a little faster, so that I dont have to ponder about all the stuff that is not happening and have yet to happen.

'cause waiting is such a chore.. A painful process.

Pls youtube 'Officially missing you - JS'

This Holiday..

Kbox with clique @ Cineleisure

Seemed like years when we got together and go out like this. It was a refreshing experience being not too long after exams. Didnt get to sing much and it was burning my pockets but overall it was great.

Christmas Dinner with Family @ Shokudo-Raffles City

Dad decided to bring the family out for an early x'mas dinner and since the whole family adore Japanese cuisine, we decided to go for something more asian as compared to the usual western dining. It was really expensive because my sis and mum ordered like it was a buffet and I couldn't bring myself to order for myself so I just sat and picked on what was already on the table. Delicious food, reasonable prices.

Lego @ Taka

I imagined what would be like to work in a lego shop, and YES, don't do it if you don't have a thing for lego. Interesting.. really...

All onboard Doulos! @ Vivo City, Harbourfront

It was to celebrate Wj's 20th birthday and we went to marche for food as usual. Thought it would be just like every other celebration but it got a little more exciting when we climbed onto Doulos. Christmas tree looks the same from last year, think they reused it..

Christmas celebration @ home

I wonder how long it has been since I last celebrated christmas with my folks. So its something new again! HoHoHo!.. Home is where the heart is.. And they're probably the best people to spend a night of giving, sharing and receiving..

I'm very disappointed when I got my results today. I studied hard for it but it just didnt reflect on my report card. Guess effort is not the key to good grades. After watching temptation of the wife, my mood somehow got better. It just came to be that it could have been worse and I shouldnt be crying over spilt milk. I still get angry and sad but only because it pisses me that I didnt do well.

Its over and done, but the heartache lives on inside....

So So So... Christmas is around the corner and its my favourite season so nothing is going to keep me away from having a good time.
If Santa is real, I'm assuming he modernizes with time so I guess it is not surprising to find him surfing the net for gift inspirations.

(In a less barbaric tone) Here is my christmas list:
1. A not so thick jacket from uniqlo.
2. A bag for school, but must be cool enough for shopping trips.
3. A super big pair of sunglasses
4. A pair of cheap cool round earrings that could go with anything.
5. A black cotton cool vest that is XXXXXL!
6. A camera (just trying my luck here..)

Woohoo... HoHoHo.. Christmas Christmas time of year...

Thank you cow for the song intro!

Think I'm too calculative sometimes. I think I am obsessed with the need to save, that's why I'm reluctant to part with money sometimes.
But I think I'm relatively generous to anyone that is generous towards me.
So the conclusion is, it is not that I'm stingy, I just havent found many people to be generous with.
Everytime I try to be a hero, I end up as a fool. So not going to do this unless I think its mutual.

craving for milk tea now..

10 reasons why I'm fat
1. I'm lazy.
2. I eat whenever, wherever.
3. I'm eating beancurd and drinking coke now, at 12 29am. =)
4. I dread exercising.
5. I'm allergic to sweat. (excuses!)
6. My family members are all fat so I fit in. (tts right! blame it on the genes..)
7. I'm not motivated to look good and I'm not being ostracised (just ignored, sometimes..).
8. I'm comfortable with how I look. (too comfortable.. lols)
9. My cheeks love the attention they're getting.
10. I'm happy being porky! A block of lard, a block of lard...

10 reasons why I'm lucky
1. I'm special.
2. I have a shelter, both physically and mentally.
3. I have no lack of everything I need.
4. I have a dream and still working towards it.
5. I can survive being alone.
6. I'm given alot of opportunities.
7. I'm well nourished (tts for sure..).
8. I have good habits (no gambling, no drugs, no smoking..)
9. I'm not suicidal.
10. I'm contented.

Now I just have to refer to this whenever I'm feeling down and I will feel alot better..

Its not like I'm doing family planning right now but after looking at my sister for the past 20 years, I'm tempted to not have kids despite all the magical things they can do to my life. I pity my parents sometimes (although there are times I think they deserved it). They started off bad, having the third child a handicapped, which meant that they could only rely on their 2 other daughters to support them when they're old and poor.
Well, my younger sis gets on my nerve at times, but she is permanently cute and good-natured.

My elder sister is what I normally call a 'failure'. I wouldnt blame leng shan for saying that she thought I was not on good terms with my sister because sometimes I really want to slap her awake and fix a new screw into her head. She is 25 years old now but is currently still on part time, working as a sales girl in a shoe shop. I have no problem with that but the thing is that she gives my dad(if she does) very little and locks the damn door playing computer games everyday. My parents love her but she doesnt think so. She still wants to get money from my parents for her wedding. I dont understand how a daughter can manage a life like this without feeling guilty at all.

So despite the fact that I dont have a big goal for a better tomorrow, my wish is that I stay alive so that I can earn enough money to support my family in future because I dont dare to hope that my sister would provide a single cent. Its a pity that I'm still studying now, or life would be so much better.

Its the hap happiest time of the year...!

Yay.. Its christmas! Happy holidays!
Haha! I like spending my days watching dramas at home so I dont have to spend a single cent. =)

Ok I dont feel like blogging actually.. forget it. Lols..

Exams are over. Yet it feels like a boring wednesday morning.
My day without having to fret over the next paper is relaxing, but not at all interesting.
Saying that, I do not wish to go back to my very stressed out days.

Yes, I now understand how Szeying gets tired after watching tv the whole day. I'm tired of watching dramas..

A chat with the girls yesterday was interesting. It was tiring but worth it.
Today I had time to think and evaluate on my past. A day of facebook always does that to me as I watch the program update the status of my secondary and jc friends.

Linda mentioned about how she would sit and watch quietly, being entertained by the bitchings by her friends of another friend as long as it wasnt her. I find it awkwardly interesting. Sets me thinking if I should just mind my own business at times. It is the smartest way to get me out of trouble.

I think the reason why I actually like blogging despite my laziness is due to the fact that I hate to be misunderstood and would like to express myself through this medium.
Ironically, due to the lack of social cues, this medium is very vulnerable to misunderstandings.

Sometimes what we say reveals alot about ourselves.
Don't be laughing just yet, time will tell that you're actually a devil.