FML.. Everything I say doesnt come out right.. Everybody gets the wrong idea.. THIS IS ME.

Get it or Get out.

I dont have to deal with this.

I am not proud nor narcissistic, but I cant seem to get that across.. Maybe I am but I just dont see it.. Heck it, FML

One of the worst days of my life, I presume. Today, or at least up till now, nothing good happened to me. Forgot my battery when I left home, got back my test result to realise that I, once again, was at the bottom despite studying really hard. My friend who has been complaining that she is going to fail ends up scoring an A. and I wonder, why am I in University? Perhaps it was just a matter of good luck and trying really hard. My life was not what I has planned before. Just when I thought I was on the right track, ka plunk! I'm back to questioning myself and blaming everything else. My eyes are tired from all the straining, my heart tired from all the screaming. I wished I could cry but I cant. Yet, on the inside, I'm burning.. I had a sentence to follow up but I accidentally deleted it.. This happens all the time. Now even the keyboard is going against me. Was it my character that was preventing me from having wonderful company like the people from the opposite table. Was it that I didnt study enough? Was it because I was thinking too much about everything else? or was it because I'm a bad child so this is karma? I had the positivity to think that when one door closes, a window opens, but I dont see my window and the world is dark. The fact that I'm wallowing in self-pity and having to blog about this shows the lack of a confidante. Pathetic Soul.. Maybe I'll be labelled as that when I eventually reach eternity.. Where I'll never die again and live in my shameful past. Everyone is trying to bring me down, yet I succumb to their evil ways knowing its a plot. Its evident that I've lost hope and trust. I'm sure, I know. I stand alone. Competition from the person you wld like to be close friends with. You smile and make jokes while they take advantage of your companionship and hope that you'll always be under their feet. This is the cruel society and I'm awake, I've always been, I just dont wish to see it. I look around, who was I looking for? Was I pretending to be looking for someone? I'd rather be alone. I dont have to listen to peoples' complains when I have a whole chunk myself. I dont need this, I deserve better.