Its at times like this when you ask yourself, 'Whats the point?'.
Life recently has been mundane mundane mundane.....
Despite my efforts at spicing things up a little.
Blah. Mounting tasks. Lack of exercise. Too many dark thoughts while working has made me the sad ol' grumpy woman with the tendency to kill a cat...
I secretly think that its rather pathetic not being able to have a friend that doesnt msg you only when he/she is plain bored.
And I hate those cold replies suggesting, 'Hey, I'm not interested. Get your information and go.'
I wonder what its like to have someone trying to impress you or make you happy.
You know, kinda like a friend that wants to stick to you.
Well.. You cant really blame this poor girl over here for her countless blog posts about her deprived life. She just have too much to moan about and its not like she is not trying hard enough.
I've got countless msgs of 'hey wuzzups' and after awhile when they are occupied with something else, it just gets shorter and less enthusiastic. Or worse when you try to chat with her and all her replies are one-liners.
And so.... 'WHATS THE POINT?'
Maybe because I'm low class, not pretty, not popular, not rich, not sociable, not interesting.. Pretty much the normal girl nobody wants to get close to. Maybe we dont share the same interests. Hmm... I think I'll just go with not popular and interesting.
Seems to make sense.
So I do things alone. I shop, I tann, I play, I eat, I work.... Me and myself. And I'm happy with that.
I dont see why I should change. And people are telling me 'Dont emo leh!'
I cant stand people thinking that being alone is sad and pathetic. You know, its real pathetic when you cant spend time alone. Too afraid of how the society judges you.
I think I wrote too much. Basically because I've been thinking too much and want to share my thoughts with someone else.
Yet, I can only do so in blogs. When some kind soul decides to visit out of boredom.
I will be a better person tomorrow. And I'm truly blessed with the good things in life which matters most to me.