Moving on

I am glad for this sudden revelation before the new year, which means a new beginning for me. Finally I was able to put down whatever self-mediated memories I've kept with me for a very long time and it feels as if I've gotten a load off my chest. Fortunately, the 'date' I had didnt go as I had planned and I was able to convince myself that I've been wasting time and effort on people that I cannot connect with, and these people are just out to toy with me. Like a puppet, so easily manipulated. So with no strings attached, I've decided, moving on was the best decision I've ever made in these 8 yrs. It all became very clear when the past haunted us that night, and I remembered why we never got together.

Chinese New Year is such a chore, especially when you have a bunch of curious cousins, who are so into their love life, and wonders why you're still single.
Hello.. Whats wrong with being single when you're 21? So I've never brought a man over to celebrate this joyous occasion, but what's the rush? I dont understand why people think its a disaster to not have a partner at this age. So you put your priorities on finding love, let me set my own priorities. You say studying is the best time to date, well come and study for my neverending exams! Even if I have the time, why would I want to engage myself in trying to maintain a relationship which will probably end sometime soon. Its a waste of time. They even asked me to get my sis to intro some guys to me. Whats wrong with you?! Talk to me about whats new in my life, what am I studying, where have I been, and I can come up with a 15 mins engaging talk with you. When I decided not to talk, you say I dont talk much, I am an introvert, oh my, its really because I find no reason to entertain your shallow thoughts. And to add to all these, I dont gamble. So chinese new year sucks, except for the hongbaos and the good food.

Oh no! Malacca trip is cancelled because everyone is too busy! What happened to rest and rejuvenation?! Haiz.. okie since its only Malacca, I am actually okay with it. Save the money and do other stuff. =)



I might be selling my old stuff at the flea market this saturday! Yay.. What a way to get rid of all the clothes...



Heh.. I spent the day sleeping, like I was really tired from all that singing yesterday.. lols.. But it was worth it because I had a good dream.. I dreamt that I stayed in a big house and I met Jim Parsons! Oh yay! A dream is a wish your heart makes...

Hur hur~~

What a good good sleep for an afternoon nap. I got a headache after that but who cares! (:

Its takes alot of courage to be yourself without having to worry if they are judging you or wondering if they might feel offended if you do this.. blah blah blah..
and apparently I am just a timid mouse struggling to keep my place within the social circle.

It sucks.

And ICTs suck with the lack of cues, so we dont know if people are rolling their eyes when chatting with you on msn. Why? Why is it so important to feel accepted? Everyone wants to be recognised and appreciated. 'Argh, dont be so sensitive!', how is that possible?! Hello, we have senses for obvious reasons!

Hello.. Change of subject.. Linda made me too happy for an emo blog post. So I am going to blog about what I shall be doing today. I am going to stay in school playing with my lappy.. Then we're going to go KBOX! Yay.. I am so glad I recovered from flu overnight! Now I can go and sing my heart out. Lalalala... Bestia left me all alone at the deck! Evil.... Bye!...........

Oh yes.. and I might be going malacca this weekend.. Just a short getaway.. Ahh.. I really need the rest and rejuvenation!